The Story of the Suicidal Self-Centred Being

Reading all about the tropical rain forest ecosystem.

If you look carefully you can see a diagram of a lovely little tree frog in need of saving.

Read John Locke and you will understand what I mean. He was, for all intents & purposes, the inventor of the concept of property. His view was was simple: God made the earth and everything on it for man (note: not women) to use for his benefit. If land was left alone and not altered or worked on to service man, then it was being wasted and in a state of disrepute. To be on this earth and live on it by the means that nature had intended is irrational. In order for someone to have the rights to live on said land it must be put under cultivation and used to yield maximum benefits to mankind.

You would think that this is a simple attack on the environment and nature as a whole, but really it is an act of war against other people. So anthropocentric were people like John Locke that considerations for other beings were beyond ridiculous. His writings were not a manifesto of what to do with nature, but a way to displace native new worlders from the land they were living on by saying that the way they lived was irrational and that their use (or rather, non-use) of the land constituted negligence of the highest order.

That is the trick to understand when it comes to self-centred behaviour. Arguments beyond the scope of range of self can not be heard or acknowledged. It matters not what you say or how valid your arguments may be, they are not even in the same room. John Locke was arguing that other humans should have their rights taken away because they weren't doing enough to alter the environment, do you think he would be capable of understanding an argument that states an animal or a tree has as much right to live as he?

Relevance: All the fights we lead, protests we march and campaigns we start are against the very fabric of the law because all the laws of the "western" (expanding) world are still those of John Locke and his cohorts. They are the basis of our lives today. As per their instructions, we still do not have equal human rights and as long as that persists, the argument of giving rights to all living things is far away. So essentially, by law, purely environmental endeavours are muted before they are spoken. If you've spent a minute learning about environmental policy you will understand very quickly that the only time anything real ever gets done is when money flows into the pockets of one many of these anthropocentric barons of humanity. Nothing is ever done for ecology's sake and there is no change on the horizon. A lot more than half of us are still obsessed with the self and could never even consider the lives of others. This is fact.

So I am reading all about nature and wondering how I can halt the bulldozers from digging out another tract of forest the size of two football stadiums this week, but we here just happily re-elected the man who turns the key on the bulldozer. Not that it would matter, as I noted before, the bulldozers would still be going no matter who we elect. But you see, not even that is the issues. The forest has no feelings, it is ingrained. Just look at the debate today. All that matters are the human jobs. Killing millions of non-humans is okay if human jobs are saved/created. That is not a joke. That is real. Be us 6.8 billion to their 10s of thousands, it doesn't matter. One human life is worth infinitely more than a soon to be extinct species never to be heard from again; muted forever.

I must admit that I often like myself as a person. This is not something a humble person is supposed to say, but I do feel that way. Yet, if I knew things would change, I would put my life down before a species. I am unique and wonderful (at times) in my own way, but my unique wonderfulness cannot be compared to that of a whole population of another species. To even dream of such a thing is irrational & self-centred to me. And for a dose of irony, those same people who are so guilt laden to never say (or do, actually) they like themselves are the very same self-centred folk that put man above every living thing... maybe deep down they feel guilty.

All I know is that we can make all the little concessions and provisions we want. We can pay the lip service and create buzz words like sustainable development to placate our guilt; but nothing will ever truly change and no ecosystem on this planet will truly be safe from the human death machine until we overturn the words of John Locke and his supporters. Looking from all other's perspectives at this spinning ball that we inhabit is the only way to find happiness and harmony. The concept of exploitation must die or it will kill & exploit all that stands in its way and only a self-centred fool can't see that in the end it will kill the fool as well.

Frustration, thinking about the fate of the poor little frog!

Moody Poser (part I)

I have been busy with things this week so I don't have much time to think about the world renowned diatribes that I usually wrestle with on this blog. I will get back to my posting ways, but for now I just feel like posing for a picture to keep things going here. It's also the fact that I can kind of be a poser at sometimes too and I like this picture. Maybe I just feel like giving people a tour of the furniture in my home, that is always a possibility too. Either way, I hope someone enjoys my moody poser pictures.

I Wish You Were a Beer

Gees... these damn twist off tops can be quite the quandary.

I'm very oral. And no I don't mean that, but I could, but this is not that kind of post. I'll give you fair warning when it is... but back to oral fixations. I don't really have a bad case of that. I mean I am not, god forbid, a smoker (that's cigarettes - nothing against more healthy and fun smokable items) or a nail chewer. According to my mom I was never a big thumb sucker either.

So as far as I can tell this oral fixation is purely utilitarian. As long as I can remember I've resorted to mouth and teeth when confounded by trying to open something that I could fit into my mouth; sometimes even larger things. I can remember sitting in quiet contemplation on whether or not opening the wretched stuck item in question with my mouth was a possibility. At least I never tried to do that with something frozen, because the consequences could be rather drastic, but when a nice cold beer doesn't want to let you twist it open to let you at its golden wonderfulness, reverting to old habits to get at it is inevitable!

Success!

Suggestive Photography

I think part of getting a little bit older is increasing your doubt about your sexiness. I've never been one to look much at weights or even threaten to enter a gym and when you are young none of that really matters. I do however walk often and play sporty games when there is someone to play with and I have never been a big eater.

So recently I've started a daily photo journal and this blog and I like to post pictures. Me personally, I don't think there is that much difference in posting with clothes or naked, but the (puritanical) society we live in likes to draw lines. They like to put up warnings, qualifications and barriers to give the illusion that there is something different and lascivious if a naked picture abounds. And don't get me started on this whole notion that people under a certain arbitrary age should be barred from seeing people naked. That is a diatribe longer than any ever witnessed waiting to happen. But this is a happy post, not one filled with angst.

The other thing is that I often question how naked pictures of men are perceived compared to those of women. It seems like pictures of naked women are universally well received, while those of men often either are ignored or deemed disgusting. I for one, don't mind men's naked pictures, although I find pictures of just genitals to be boring. But to be truthful, I feel the same way about women's pictures in that regard. I don't want to be ignored and even though my body isn't that rock hard cliché that we all are supposed to think is the epitome of male sexuality I still occasionally like to put up photographs and be seen as a sexually exciting being. We all deserve that.

So with all that said, I'm still only posting half naked pictures. It's not much, but this isn't a male nudity blog. It is a blog about issues, me, and things I like to challenge people with. Today I challenge anyone to say that there is anything different about these suggestive photographs than anything else I have posted. Naked, not naked, half naked, I am Alex and this is me, sometimes pretty, sometimes not, but always authentically me.

Reflections on Things Left Behind

Some things are left behind; it's inevitable. Every move I have ever made has lost me something or another, even if it was the smallest of things. There was also a big move which intentionally left things with my parents that I was to reclaim at a later date. Some of those things did find their way to being reunited with me and some still sit in a room that I find difficult to even insinuate is mine, since my parents have themselves moved "my room" without me three times themselves.

There is another move that I didn't make that will always be the biggest move of my life. It too left a few nondescript things behind that I find a great deal of difficulty making meaning of. They are there and they exist and sometimes I wonder if they were left behind by chance, by neglect, or malice. I think all three are true actually, because it is not just one thing that got left behind. In the picture below we have a prime example of what I think is probably the middle category. It's just a thing and it doesn't have much meaning at all. In fact the only things that have meaning are the ones that we endow with importance of one sort or another.

I find it difficult to give this particular thing much importance. It is useful and that is nice. Maybe I should just be happy that a useful thing was left in my possession. But still I can''t help looking at it and thinking of who it touched and if they remember it being useful to them. I suppose the right course of action would be to let it go or throw it away, but I'm not one to junk useful things, even when they have a lot more meaning than they deserve.

Looking for Meaning

The Infamous Music Room

Surrounded by MusicThis Photo is above because the other one is kinda half naked, but you can see more of the room (and ME!) in the other one. This room didn't exist when I bought my home. It was constructed for the purpose of housing music.

Not so long ago I bought many a record; or is that many a CD... well both! And most good things on both, if available. The result was the thousands of lovely items you see before you. I know it is hard to tell, so I'll give a short description: There are 4 vinyl album racks of which you can see 2 in their entirety & the other 2 partially in the picture below (not so much in the one above), plus there are some records on the ground that poke out past the record racks. There are two more of the huge CD racks that you see at the far end of the picture, one is partially shown on the left side of the picture. There is also one more of the little CD racks. In total it is somewhere around 2500 items.

These days I don't buy so much music, not because of the mp3 craze as much as because I don't really have the money to be buying so much music. It is a sad state of affairs. See, the cool thing about my record collection is that if there was an artist I liked you could find EVERYTHING they EVER released in my collection; every single, album & almost any official release. I wouldn't go so far as to get identical singles/albums from different territories (like some people), but I would get any unique release with any exclusive song. There are many a Japanese CD with a bonus track or two to be found alongside an American or European release in there.

These days there are very few bands I follow that vigilantly. There is one that I have been a fan of since sometime in the 90s from Denmark of all places and in my mail today was a note to pick up their latest album (released 2 months ago) on VINYL. What's so special about that? The album was ONLY released on vinyl in Denmark & Scandinavia where they are still popular. It warms my heart to have a little piece of what was once a regular occurrence in my life still going on. A special band from a special far away place that lets me dream and feel far away times. The irony is that the reason why I still listen to them and not most of the other bands in this collection of mine, is that they NEVER stayed in that time. They kept moving forward, always updating and changing their sound. Oh to be far away from the stifling noise of record company execs and hardheaded fans that want people to never change. The beauty of music is that you can never quite get your hands on it, because it is always just over that next hill calling you. Thank you for always changing.

looking emo - being silly

Yesterday's post was incredibly serious and I did claim in my description that I was a terribly unserious guy. So I feel I must remedy this just a tad. I like to post pictures here more than in my flickr account because they don't get size limited. That said, I am not a big fan of repeating exactly what I am posting over there in this blog. In fact, I guarantee this space will continue to be more about words than photos. What I often do is put a different photo taken at the same time as one that is uploaded to flickr. This is what I am doing today. Do people ever click on the pictures to get them in the full size? I always do. I absolutely hate small sized photos that are everywhere on the internet. It is a big reason why I think web spaces like facebook are useless. What's the point of uploading pictures if the website makes them tiny?

Anyway, today's photo fits the mold described above to a tee. Someone called me emo in another picture in this set. Ha! Maybe... why don't you let me know and also let me know what you would like to see more of in this blog: Pictures, diatribes, personal events in my life, or something else. I don't promise you'll get what you want, but letting me know won't hurt. Okay... that was less heavy!

Representing What?

Okay, this theory that I am going to try to explain is pretty much mapped out in my mind. It took many years of observation, reading and thought to get at it and I'm pretty sure that I am not going to be able to do it justice on this first go, but what is important to me is to establish the paradigm in my readers minds so that when I later come back to the theory to explain further or to add detail there is groundwork to expand on. So this will be a rudimentary look at the role of government, business, and democracy and what we perceive as being all three.

First I would just like to say that I don't really like the word "democracy" as it is a misnomer. All governments of the world that called themselves "democracies" are actually republics. This is a good thing. I don't want to live in an actual democracy and I'm pretty sure that very few other people would either. If one lived in a democracy you would have to vote on everything. You would vote on the budget, you would vote on tax law, you would vote on every minutia of government. In reality it would mean that you would effectively be a part of the house of representatives along with whatever else you do. And not just you but everyone. It would literally paralyse society and nothing could get done. Beyond that, it would be pure majority rule so some of the most puerile but popular sentiments would be enacted into law. An excellent example of this is the California repeal of gay marriage that happened in November. That was pure democracy in action - GREAT! So for the purpose of this treatise the word "democracy" will be used as a place holder for "A Government of representatives that is voted in by the public." That is what everybody thinks democracy is anyway.

But that is really an ancillary notion anyway, because I am here to tell you that NONE of you live in a democracy (be it literal or representative). The last bastions of true representative government (democracy) have more than fallen by the wayside. For the purpose of this argument I will use the United States as a default example of evidence to prove the theory, but most of the observations are apt worldwide, even if they are on a much less egregious scale.

On Tuesday a new "government" will come into administration in the US. It was voted in (we assume fairly) by a majority of voting Americans. This new administration to the casual observer is markedly different to the previous one. It is considered to be more fair and further to the left and indeed it is, but the important thing to think about is how. How is it different, other than superficially, to the previous administration? There is a difference, but the difference is not as we perceive it because no true power actually changed hands. For us to understand that concept we must first understand who has actual power. Is it really the body of government that was just elected? How did the people elected gain enough public awareness to be elected? Someone had to pay, right? But campaign finance is just the tip of the iceberg.

You see the issue is no longer the fact that politicians take money from corporate lobbyists and interest groups that want them to do their bidding. No, it is that these corporations donate to all the candidates of both (all important) parties and are a fundamental and indistinguishable part of actual government. Laws are enacted to serve the interests of business/corporations at all times. Even when someone like Obama speaks of "creating jobs" he is in fact speaking both for the people and for the corporations. The voice has become one and the same. What kind of jobs do you think he is trying to stimulate? There will be no new government positions being made available. This is about how to satisfy big corporate interests and to make it desirable for them to expand the labour force. These new jobs will all be corporate jobs. These new jobs will all make corporations more money than they would lose in salary.

This is not to say that Obama is any more in or out of bed with corporations than the previous administration. The fact is that the question if he is or isn't is irrelevant. He is equally in bed, because his administration is NOT the government. His administration like the ones that came before it acts as an intermediary between the true government (corporations) and the people (voters). Elected officials' role is to represent the people's wishes to the actual government (that is not elected, but rules without limits) so as to form a more peaceful relationship between corporation & worker (see master & slave). The biggest difference between someone like Bush & Obama is which sector will get the most concessions. Will it be the religious zealots (Bush) or the blue collar workers (Obama)? In this sense there is a true difference, but not a fundamental one. Who will be better off might change within the lower classes, but the ability and opportunity for corporations to acquire and hold money & power will not change one iota. The true government has not changed and will not change.

As per my norm, I will post for you an apt photo. In this case, in contemplation.

Only this time it comes in the middle as a much needed break from all of these words!

Let us look at the contentious "health care" system in the United States versus Cuba. Cuba is one of the last remaining strongholds of (somewhat*) communism. Cuba spends the least per capita on health care of the nations in the top 25 nations in regards life expectancy at birth. Consequently, they are near the bottom of that top 25. Not surprisingly it is due to a lack of specialized modern machines, but not due to the availability of doctors. Still, considering the lack of funds, to be in the top 25 is impressive. The nation that is right beside them (less than 0.1 years longer in life expectancy) is the United States and they are the nation in the world that spends the most per capita on health care. It's not even that they spend the most, they spend almost double the next highest spending nation does. And what does that get them: A life expectancy equal to that of Cuba. The irony is delicious.

Here is the United States spending billions on fancy machinery and all sorts of things and yet can only manage a life expectancy of one of the poorest nations on the planet. Why is this? It has everything to do with the tiered health care system in the United States. Some people have optimum care, some people have adequate care while others have no care whatsoever. Those at the bottom of the tree, not surprisingly, have high mortality rates and the ones in the middle have only a somewhat better chance of longevity. But the question remains if you are spending so much money shouldn't it even out. Well no, by spending more money on a small group you may be extending their lives by as much as humanly possible, but the others getting sub par care will disproportionately have shorter and unhealthier lives. Because there are more of them they influence the statistics to reflect their situation. But if other countries manage an average of 5 years longer lifespans with half the money spent, why can''t the United States (spending double) get at least equal results? For the answer to this you must follow the money. Unlike the other countries where money spent on health care directly benefits patients in the United States more than half of the money spent on health care winds up in corporate coffers. Either in the medical profession itself (doctors exorbitant salaries) or with insurance companies who are the largest holders of assets. Insurance companies in the United States act like gangsters skimming a percentage off of the money spent on health care, but they don't skim just a percentage, they get the lion's share of the pie.

This is just one order of corporations, there are others in other industries (transportation, media, etc, etc). All of them act in much the same way. Can anything be done about this? The answer is no, not without a serious revolution, because it is not a question of government anymore. They ARE the government. It is already established. They set the laws; they set the rules. The role of elected officials is to operate as best they can under the rule of law of the corporations. Now I know very well that in the rest of the world the insurance health care system analogy is not apt, but I used it to demonstrate a clear line. The way that mass media corporations and others operate throughout most of the rest of the world is exactly same. The simple reason I chose this example was because it is the most concise explanation possible and as you can see this is already a long argument.

I'm not really done here, but I have been writing for two hours and I think I have laid enough groundwork for some kind of understanding. It is important to try to be able to see who really holds power in the world and why. If anyone thinks that politicians hold any true power then they are not seeing the whole scope of life and interactions between policy makers worldwide. Only careful analysis of facts can show these connections and I do not mean to upset anyone by saying that they are not living in a world where the government is accountable to them, but it is a sad reality and the only way that anything will ever change is by first understanding what exactly is going on.

*- No actual communist government as per Karl Marx's manifesto has ever been enacted on earth. Cuba, and other countries in the past, have used a hierarchal government that is loosely based on communist theory but does not employ the bottom up approach & complete freedom that is central to any true communist society.

Not a food related post

I have a new socio-political post on the back burner. It is an idea I've been cooking up for months and it is damn fresh. Fresh enough that I don't think I have heard anyone else ever explore the topic in the manner that I will be doing when I get down to writing it. I think it might be some of my best thought out work if I can pull it together. But I want to give it another day to stew for a bit. A little seasoning won't hurt and anyone reading is probably full from all of the diatribes below already. So I am planning on serving it up tomorrow and hopefully it will be a tasty treat.

Now with all of those cooking metaphors I'm sure you were expecting some food related picture next, right? Well sorry, there will be no food for you! Instead, today I felt like posting this collage of faces in full size. My free flickr account puts a limit on the size, but here I get to post pictures in full, so I wanted to have this one up, because I think it is pretty cool.

Cultural Sexism vs. Natural Equality

I am taking a class called the Environment from a Historical & Cultural Perspective. THIS, is right up my alley. Low and behold what do we talk about in the first two classes but a feminist approach to looking at the relationship between culture and nature and how the dichotomy between the two closely mirrors that of male vs. female from a sexist perspective in historical terms. It was fascinating. The readings for this week were literally speaking to the exact sexist things that I had experienced just a few days earlier. Here they were on paper and relating to global issues of how the concept of duality (master & servant) is harmful.

The crux was that we as a society view nature from a sexist perspective. We have a view that it must be dominated, taken control of and used for our benefit. Nature is somehow lower than us and to be used (or abused) in any way we see fit. The reasoning is that it falls outside of what we see as culture (the good) and is just natural & unkempt (the bad). With this point of view we see ourselves as a dominant civilizer of nature and that it is our responsibility to take care of it, because it needs taking care of! Obviously I, and some others, have a divergent point of view. But as I've stated below I take the feminist position in regards to these subjects. Nature is to be loved as an equal and as part of us. My solution: Declare that nature is CULTURE!

And to keep going with my silly pictures to match serious posts theme:
I give you an actual picture from the lecture in class today!

Stressed out on Caffeine!

Yesterday's post was monumentally serious. I need to follow it up with silliness... but in all seriousness, people in North America are clueless as to how to make an espresso. It is quite pitiful. The worse part is that they are completely unaware of their own ineptitude at making a decent espresso. So much so that, so called, espresso cafés like Starbucks now litter the landscape. Yet what people mainly order from these places is not espresso, but oddly concocted espresso drinks. You know all those latte/mochaccino type deals. I think they might be ordering all of those things because North Americans couldn't make a good espresso to save their lives and need to mask their bad espresso under all this foamy dressing. I know that's what I do when I'm at a café here. I am so sure that the espresso is going to be awful that I always order a cappuccino, because that will usually be drinkable.

This is NOT the case when I am in Portugal or at home. At my house I have a really great little espresso machine that I know how to use properly and Portugal has simply the best espresso I have ever had at almost any café in the whole of the country. See, your espresso SHOULD have a layer of tan coffee foam resting on the black espresso. This foamy tan stuff should be thick enough that it stays glued to the sides of your espresso cup as you drink it. If all you see is black when you look into your coffee cup you know you are in for some bad espresso. I don't think many people in North America understand this. So I am often invited to these cafés to have espresso drinks with people who think they like espresso, but don't really. In fact they usually say they don't actually like espresso, they just like these highfalutin espresso "drinks". Perhaps it is because they've never had a half decent espresso. Either way I would like them to stop talking like espresso some kind of phenomenon in North America, when they so clearly have no idea what good espresso is like! :P

Oh... and a picture of espresso in Portugal! Do you see the tan foam?

Feminism vs. Equality

The people who know me call me a feminist. I have always found that a bit difficult to take ownership of because I am male. It's not that I am not for the ideals of feminism at all, but the fact that I am a man makes me sometimes feel like I am treading on someone else's ground. I prefer Equalitist. I mean that is what I really believe in. The fact is that there is no inherent difference between women and men other than the purely physiological differences that are obvious. I despise the concept of gender and the idea that women think/act in one way and men in another. It is all just a societal fabrication that gets enforced as we grow up. Luckily or unluckily, depending on your point of view, I grew up almost completely without any of those myths about what boys should do/act vs. what girls should do/act. I simply don't view men and women as being all that different and it really bothers me when people are made to feel like they have to do things to fit their gender stereotype. Examples like men need to have short hair, women having to shave their bodies, each gender having to wear a certain type of clothing really upset me and I don't stay quiet about it.

All of this would be characterized by many as classic (2nd wave) feminist thought. This would be fine with me, but in my experience there is a whole section of feminist thought goes beyond deconstructing gender and promoting equality. I have encountered a tract of thought that centres on assigning blame to men. And not only assigning blame, but expounding on how men will always be the problem and will always act to further the patriarchy. These people create a world where men and women are in constant opposition to each other and that the role of men is to try to be the oppressor. I can't get behind that. I find it too be deeply sexist and offensive, not to mention counterproductive.

It was my most resent confrontation with people who expounded such a view that left me wanting to be as far away from my old blog as possible. I just can't even muster the energy to debate these people when they shout slogans and childish rhetoric at me. With that in mind, I happily secede the word and concept of Feminism to them. They can have it; I don't care. I rather be an Equalitist anyway, because that is what I truly believe in. So I guess under the current climate I rather not be called a Feminist, not because I don't subscribe to the ideals that most feminists believe in, but because being a man I feel like I don't have the right to define the word and some of the definitions are in complete opposition to what I feel is right.

And for something lighter... a picture from the debate that led to this conclusion:

HANDS DOWN, it was the most consensus EVER reached at this table.

Introduction

I am fleeing from another blog populated by immature numskulls who are so caught up in the idea of gender that they have determined that men should be excluded from certain discussion groups. The whole basis for their sexist discrimination is the concept of creating a "safe place". A safe place, as if only men can do harm or are such insensitive clouts that their mere presence will foul the community. Yes, it is true that the most heinous, lewd comments I have seen have been perpetrated by men and the worst part was their own ignorance to the offence they were creating. I have no cache here, but I can assure I was never one of those, nor was I ever accused of being such. I am, as always, as polite and respectful of other's spaces as I can be. I feel it is important to make every effort to be respectful of other people's words.

So this here is different. There is a lack of the community aspect that I once enjoyed on the other blog. I will admit to missing that, but I will attempt to keep this one fresh and full of nice little diatribes for all to enjoy as well as some pictorial & musical breaks from all the words. I guess I could just use the old blog just for blogging, but I kinda feel like a fresh start would be nice.